Anger

And Jealousy.  Isn't that how the song goes?  Well it does in my head anyway.....

I've been downright mad lately.  And envious. At what and of whom you may ask? Of everyone....you name them and I've flung the arrows of indignation and envy.

Then I beat myself up. It's not right to be angry. It's totally wrong to covet thy neighbor's goods and thy neighbor's life (that's life...not wife) but dammit......I want to do things, I want to go places and live life to it's fullest and I'm not doing that.....this was suppose to be MY TIME.....the time where I got to travel to Europe, spend weekends at bed and breakfasts, taking cooking classes with my girlfriends......

Instead I'm stuck in at hateful job and prisoner in my home.........nothing to look forward and nothing to gain. Sometimes even a trip to the grocery store can blow up in my face.

Something has got to change...................

I am angry.