Happy Birthday Grandma

We're closing in on our second year without you.  We all still miss you and can't quite figure out why you're gone.  Alex misses you too.  He likes to look at pictures of you, but I'm not sure he understands why he doesn't see you in person.  I'm not sure I understand it either.

I know that I need to come to terms with all that happened during the week you died.  I have to forgive the people who kept me from you because of their jealousy and their own agendas.  We had a lifetime together and they only got that final week.  I have to accept that our time together during the 46 yrs meant way more to each of us, than the last week they spent scrambling to be the most important person in your life and death. But I should have been there for you, I should have fought them harder, but I didn't. I need to forgive myself as well. 

I hope you and Grandpa are celebrating your birthday in heaven today.  We always celebrated both of your birthdays together, during this week...I miss that too. Neither one of you is forgotten, your impact on our lives is still apparent.  Thank you and I miss you both!